One of my prayers is that my children will find their path in life, and find a profession that would allow them to live with a good standard of living. You see, I live a life of abandonment in my youth. Or so I thought. But I knew from day one, I wanted to write. And I knew I wanted to major in English or literature. But I also didn’t want to leave my father and my mother. I was so attached to them and to home. My ambition was to look after them and stay with them. And I achieved that goal. But that meant not pursuing the dream that remained in my heart while I was young.
So I never reached out for my dream until I was finally able to after reaching 40 after both had gone to heaven and no longer needed me.
There was the Open University Malaysia near my place and they were offering a Bachelor of Honours in English Studies. It was a dream come true. Now, I finally have the Degree I wanted and the field of study I absolutely love.
Now my son has decided that the field of business studies is not for him. Honestly, the only reason I enrolled him there is because his grades in secondary school will not provide him with the opportunity he might want to go in, in the future. It has nothing to do with anything else. I want him to be able to open doors that would otherwise stay closed. But his mind seems made up, he doesn’t see what he is doing but a waste of his time.
And I feel so sad about it. So here I am, praying to God about it. And I again feel an answer coming to my mind about how much I struggled when I studied the same topics for years during my younger years. I was reminded how little fun I had going through those years. And in the end, I ventured into a career that cared little about my Diploma in Business Studies and only cared if I could write well in English.
So, the voice inside my mind seems to lovingly and playfully tell me to get out of all this seriousness and allow my son to find his own path in life because it will present itself, as it had me. Life is not a journey without direction. We just don’t see it that way because we are so finite. I don’t even know if I would make it today alive. I may be dead tonight, who knows. But God has seen my life from beginning to end. So who am I to question him. He says it will be beautiful so I will wait everyday for His unfolding.
God is good. All the time.